Its prospects grow tight in my chest,
my throat and
I almost want to vomit.
Ridding myself of the fear.
Believing in myself is something no one has done.
Not even me.
Maybe until now.
Seeing a corporate future,
one thatís worldwide,
so it feels,
makes the queasiness of my stomach and looking ahead,
seems so SCARY.
Striving for esteem and confidence are my long term goals.
I have those Aís
I have those awards
I have recognition for helping all of those....
But I donít have me, because you see,
I am afraid to succeed.
I want the success,
but not the kind society thinks of.
I want emotional success.
Mastery of myself
I want freedom from my feelings.
Setting them free and not caging them in me.
I want to embrace achievement.
I just need one thing.
So here it is:
ďGO FOR IT!!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!Ē
Sincerely, Your loving self.
January 8, 2001