Anxious Growth

Its prospects grow tight in my chest,

my heart,

my throat and

my thoughts.

I almost want to vomit.

Ridding myself of the fear.


Believing in myself is something no one has done.

Not even me.

Maybe until now.

Seeing a corporate future,

one thatís worldwide,

so it feels,

makes the queasiness of my stomach and looking ahead,

seems so SCARY.

Striving for esteem and confidence are my long term goals.

I have those Aís

I have those awards

I have recognition for helping all of those....

people.

But I donít have me, because you see,

I am afraid to succeed.


I want the success,

but not the kind society thinks of.

I want emotional success.

Mastery of myself

my emotions,

my destiny.

I want freedom from my feelings.

Setting them free and not caging them in me.

I want to embrace achievement.

I just need one thing.


AFFIRMATION.


So here it is:

ďGO FOR IT!!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!Ē

Sincerely, Your loving self.



Michelle Poet

January 8, 2001

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